Sometimes when we move to a special place we love it so much that we never want to leave it. In this we develop deep feelings regarding our little home place; which creates an attachment.
We become attached thinking that we “own” the thing but
really, it is owning us. When we leave the place our feelings are
profound. we become sad and develop homesickness. Which is a kind of
dreamy separation anxiety about wanting to return home once again.
When we are in this situation we can’t see the joy or good in moving
on or moving forward with our lives. When we move against the flow
disorder and chaos prevail. I have seen this arise within myself four
times in my life. And I think the great wheel is spinning again.
I feed the wildlife here in the winter time but I don’t “own” them. Hunters remind of this again and again every year.
I care for this place but I don’t “own” it. And sometimes I view it
with a critical eye because I am angry at the outcome of broken dreams
that never materialized for myself from the life I have made here.
didn’t make the tough decisions, they were made for me by others and I
simply went along with them. This never works out for those involved.
Nobody should take a backseat in their own life. One should never give
another control over their life.
Lost Dreams of a failed relationship. Lost dreams of growing old with
friends. Lost dreams of completion and of finishing things I started.
I have accompished some of my life goals, but with not one single
ounce of help from anyone else. I have had to fight and struggle the
whole way. Now I am at the point where I relax and let nature take its
course. It is scary to build up enough courage to live freely.